My Experiences with Love

Gave this bitch all I had. I liked her hella bad.
She was a fucking dime and I gave her all my time.
She shows up with hickies on her neck. I start to wish we never met.
She doesn’t talk to me all weekend. Shows up tryin 2 make a mend!
I look with such disgust. Take her out of my life is a must.

I hate that I went over the top for this bitch. I gave her all my time, smoked her out huge all the time and went big with everything I did and she goes and gets drunk and is all over it with some guy! Fuck this bullshit! I hate trusting women and letting them in and this was definitely a set back. I can’t wait to leave for nevada and start in the mines weilding. $185,000 before adding overtime which is time and a half and before deducting taxes. That sounds like a lot of fucking money that imma sit on for awhile. Bitch will prolly realize she’s missing out but hey so will every other girl whose shut me down or fucked me over. I’m not looking back and I’m not paying attention to shit that’s here now! Imma go be pissed off and start my life. I’m sick of where its at now. I’m either gonna start my life the good way or imma just start killing everyone and go to prison one way or another I’m getting out of this bullshit place I’m at now.
There’s my rant and I feel better and fuck off to everyone! Have a shitty christmas and fucked up new years bitch! Dueces.

So finally rid of my ex and it feels rly nice and I feel like a weight has been lifted and I finally feel free of any attachment I had to her. Only problem is I rid myself of her but meet an awesome homie who is super dope and that I have a lot in common with but she’s been burned and hurt so many times she doesn’t know wat she wants and she def knows how to put a guy through the ringer trying to figure out how to get to the next step with her and she shuts me down one day and the next turns around and mounts me and macks wid me and cuddles with me for hours asking me why I like her and telling me things like she was trying rly hard not to fall for me but she can’t help but like me and then completely shuts me down again! This is why men die before women. We kill ourselves trying to figure out how to impress u and make u understand that when we say sweet things and do sweet things that its becuz we care and not all of us are just trying to get into ur pants!
WHY DOES LOVE HAVE TO BE SO HARD AND WHY CAN’T THERE BE AN INSTRUCTION BOOK TO LOVE!!!!!!!!!

I’m absolutely positive I’ve gone insane. Sitting in the park I heard ppl telling me my best friend, that I was chilling wid whose been my homie for awhile now, is out to get me and that he never cared he was just using me for wat I have. I caught it and realized I was angry and wanted to hurt him for it and talked myself down. I’m pretty sure its time to get checked out but wat do doctors know right?

I’m pretty sure this job is gonna kill me. I haven’t slept enough to still be awake. From this I’ve been smoking and taking a lot of adderal and I was sitting in the park and I watched a fight break out but as soon as I looked away and looked back it was gone. Then a couple mins later heard voices screaming at me with no one around me. I’m pretty sure I’m losing my mind but this shit is starting to get fun! Freedom is so worth it!

So why does everyone have to pair off and be in relationships? I just want a women to give me the opportunity to prove I am capable of being with just one woman! This is bullshit. I fucked off a bunch of relationships becuz I wasn’t ready for them and now I’m shit out of look at finding a woman to give me the shot to be the best thing she’s ever had! Id hold her and never let go and tell her ever chance I got that she was beautiful and that I love her. Id tell her that there is no one else id rather be wid and make sure she gets kissed atleast once a day! And told that she is amazing and beautiful and she should never change!